Everything has an origin story. Every plant comes first from a seed, every bird from an egg, every creation from an idea, and every feeling from a belief. Here is where we will begin.
We all come into life with a clean slate and a unique energy and soul essence. As we are developing through infancy and childhood, we are absorbing everything around us: the energy in our home, the conversations going on around us, the tone people use regularly, whether our caregivers are stressed and unresponsive or if they are calm, grounded, and responsive. If we are exposed to a lot of chaos from infancy and into childhood, correlating changes occur in our developing mind that set our subconscious baseline for chaos and instability. Let’s say this child is exposed to chronic stress from their environment as their parents’ regular fighting, anxiety, and disagreements become like grating background sounds to the music track of life. Let’s add another factor to this scene, a complete across-country geographical change!
This was my origin story. Maybe you can relate to this journey. In these unstable and unpredictable waters, it was difficult for any real grounding to occur. However, the resilience needed to persevere through the ongoing shifts became a trait that would prove to be worth while to have cultivated.
Here, in these following years, there has been so much uncovering about my origin story. Some beliefs that I have excavated are: feeling like I don’t matter and will be abandoned, or that I can’t trust anyone because I will be betrayed, or that I am defective in someway and; therefore, am unloveable. Now almost in my 30s, I know these are subconsciously stored beliefs that I can reprogram with consistent subconscious reprogramming tools like auto-suggestion, deep trance meditation, letters to the inner child, verbal affirmations, and most importantly physical expression through words, song, and dance.
The journey of healing is a tough one, but the progress shows up in those pivotal moments or small moments where we suddenly have a new awareness that did not exist before. Maybe during expressing ourself, we hear an old voice of a parent bouncing around our brain and we decide today I will be gentle with myself because abrasive energy was the voice of the past. When we feel ourselves become overwhelmed with emotion as one of these old rooted faulty beliefs gets triggered, we can adopt an attitude of non-judgment and allow the energy to move through us with words, music, or dance. We now prioritize ourselves because we know our soul is traveling a long journey in the vehicle of our human body.
Grace and gratitude become the virtues arising from the ashes once we make the brave trek through the unknown waters of taking a different path in how we now hold ourself in unconditional positive regard. We are moving forward even on those days where it may feel like moving through sludge. We are connected to our soul’s journey and everything that is meant for us is coming towards us. We develop patience with the Self.
These old faulty belief roots slowly get uprooted each time we take a stance of compassion and curiosity for our bumps in the road. As we traverse this path, we become capable of filling each one of those potholes with new material that is far stronger, sturdier, and can last the test of time.
Thank you for reading and may your journey today be met with self-compassion and curiosity. 💖